I am working on a blog about the dining room/pantry addition, I am having trouble getting pics from my hubby but I will get it done and posted soon. In the mean time I thought I should blog about something major that has been happening and that I feel I can’t keep bottled up or just talk to Nathan about. Weight loss.
About 4 years ago I weighed 350 lbs. yep 350…crazy right. I always comforted myself with the thought that it didn’t matter, I was confident that I was still pretty had a good personality and was living the life I wanted. Then the bottom fell out and I was devastated in lots of ways. Suffice it to say that a cheating partner, a major split and major emotional turmoil I decided to do something about how unhappy I was like yesterday! So I had Lap-band surgery and I lost weight CRAZY fast! I had lost 170 lbs at my smallest in just around a year. I also started working on myself and figuring out what made me happy that had absolutely nothing to do with the person I was seeing or not seeing. I started getting happy and it was the craziest thing but I felt fun and sexy and a whole list of things that I hadn’t felt about myself in a really long time. The hurt was fading and the fun was starting! Then I met Nathan. And it was sort of like the bottom fell out again but in a VERY good way. I was happy with all of the areas of my life and was busy falling madly in love. I am not going to go into a bunch of personal details but it definitely got rocky for a while and smoothed back out after a proposal, a whirlwind wedding, and then the announcement of a baby on the way.
At the beginning of my pregnancy I had MAJOR morning sickness and when you throw in that it was the worst time of year for my lap-band I was in serious danger of becoming dehydrated. So I had my band loosened and things got better. But the pounds started packing on pretty fast…the doctor told me 30-40 lbs was acceptable for my weight gain. HAHAHAHA on delivery day I had gained 79 lbs. 79! I really wanted to try to lose it without tightening my band. you know like a “normal” person. At first I was doing good. By my 6 week check up I had lost right at 30 lbs. Feeling good I was back at work, picking up kids and a new momma. And also a fast food junkie. 4 weeks ago I weighed myself….286. Wait WHAT! 286? What had happened to my weight loss??? So I went and had my first band adjustment. I lost 12 lbs without even trying because even though my band isn’t nearly tight enough to get back to 210 (wedding day weight and then current goal) without major work I do have some restriction. I got the MYFitnessPal app o my phone and started counting calories. I know myself and if I just cut things out I will tell this weight loss to take a flying jump and eat cookies till I feel better. So I am counting calories so I can still have the things I like and just learn how to have them without cheating my diet and myself. I have lost 2 lbs a week so far which is the projected weight loss for eating the calories allotted to e by the app. This weekend I decided that it wasn’t enough! A dear friend is getting married in July in Las Vegas and I know what dress I want to wear so I have goals…like GOALS. So we are upping the ante this week with exercise and seeing what happens to that 2 lbs a week loss.
New goal: Leaving my band where it is and getting the rest of the weight off. EXCEPT Nathan I were talking and turns out that 210 really isn’t acceptable anymore. Looks like I am trying to lose a whole person again because the high end of my ideal weight is 140…..which is quite a bit lower than my previous weight. Do I think I will get to 140? I have no idea but I am going to try my darnedest! And with my awesome husband who loves me no matter what FOR REAL and is standing back there cheering me on like every pound I lose really is something to celebrate I think I just might!